Monday, February 28, 2005

i walked through the door today. My mom had this weird look on her face. "We got two messages today," she said. "Are they good?" i asked. See, we just got an answering machine and these were the first messages we recieved. i figured that was what she was so excited about. She told me to play them. i did. The first was telling me i had a dentist appointment. Woot. The second was Sidney Reid, telling me i had been accepted to St. Martin's College.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Finally, some direction.

Tuesday, February 22, 2005

LAST WEEK IN QUOTES:

"i am so tired." -me

"You're like one of the guys. Like, none of us think you're hot because we don't think about you that way. You know?" -Josh

"I'm an STD casserole." -Zach

"I am so tired." -Jennifer

"I hope your taste in men is better than your taste in cats." -Dad

"FER-GUS REJ-ECT!!!" -us obnoxious Dentonians

"I am so tired." -Tyler

"I'm so sick of basketball!!!" -Me and Tyler

"This was the perfect assignment for you because you are very creative. However, I'm not giving you an A." -Mr. Phillips

There are so many more, but i'm tired. We have a week of Divisional Basketball ahead of us so it'll be 6 more nights of not sleeping and cheering loudly. Pep band songs make me want to puke.

LOVELKJASDFKJENOANVANEGIV
trish

Friday, February 11, 2005

When we went shopping for prom dresses, i was really disgusted with myself. i have one pale flabby body. Normally, it doesn't bother me. But that day it did. i have a completely seperate image of myself in my own mind than what is reality.

i'm not this girl.

i wish i was strong, independant, and willing. i wish i did and said the right things at the right time. i wish people called on me when they needed a favor because they could count on me to do it right. i do nothing right. i don't take initiative because i can't do anything right. i just want to be left alone for now.

"It is better to remain silent and be thought a fool than to open one's mouth and remove all doubt."

If you say so, Mr. Twain.

Saturday, February 05, 2005

My family and i came out of JB's after a nice, uneventful meal. We were walking around the corner; there was a man standing next to the Employee's Only door outside--i've seen JB's employees smoking back there. This man was reading a newspaper. He looked up as we walked to our van, as expected.

When we got to the van, the man with the newspaper shouted "hey!" and began to run across the street. i noticed the newspaper laying on the ground. i then looked up to see flames shooting out of the gas tank of an expensive suburban while another man had been gassing it up. When he turned and saw the flames, he pulled the nozzle out of the gas tank without shutting it off and flames spewed in a perfect arch all over the ground. It all happened within ten seconds and the fire was out of control. The woman in the suburban grabbed her children and ran. There was mass chaos as people ran toward the fire and others ran away from it. A third man, the man working at the gas station came out with a fire extinguisher that didn't do a lick of good. He seemed very nonchalant about the whole thing.

Soon two waitresses came out of JB's and bolted down the alley. A man with a camera--the big expensive kind that reporters use--came running up the alley. The media was there before we could even hear the sirens of firetrucks or police.

i have never felt so helpless in my life. i doubt i'll ever forget seeing those flames shooting out of the nozzle. Instinct tells you to help, but really, what can be done? i don't believe anyone was hurt; it should be in the newspaper tomorrow.

We all watched in a kind of fascinated horror. i wanted to cry, but only because of the sheer unpredictability of it all, of the suddeness. It really was a freak accident.

Later, we drove by the gas station. The middle had been cut off with police tape and the gas pumps around it were back in full use. White foam covered the area where black smoke had been billowing from. Seems appropriate, i think.